Anger, Love, Peace and Con...

Well here I am again... So much has happened to me over the past few days. Thursday seems to be the day when everything happened both good, and bad. It is a rather strange feeling to have both happen at once.

On Thursday the day was started with a feeling of great hope and a generally good mood. That lasted all of an hour and fifteen minutes into my work day. I am called into a meeting and am told I screwed up again... and I may not have a job by the end of the day. So for the next seven hours or so I am left in limbo, on the verge of a freak out until 4:03 in the pm when I get again called into a meeting telling me my time has come to an end and that I need to clean out my desk. ( I already had been working on this all day just in case) I admit I felt really upset and I did my best to hold composure with I feel I failed.

After that blow to my ego at work I was going to meet a woman whom is in my opinion just fantastic and wonderful. I don't know if she realizes that I really was glad she was there. Everyone knows you want to show your best to someone when you are meeting them for the first time, I wasn't at my best. My ego had taken such a large blow that I wasn't my usual self. I really hope she didn't think I wasn't interested in her because I was, and still am. I really hope to see her again sometime soon.

Friday was the day I was to take a vacation. The plan to go out to Colossalcon was not going to be changed just because I was out of work. So Joe and I went and tried to have a blast, and for the most part did except the hotel. It was Saturday night and were in a late night panel and some stupid kids starting some problems and all the panels were closed down. We ended up all going outside and just talking. Then we were being ordered around being threatened by the hotel that if we didn't go back to our rooms we were going to be evicted from the hotel. to say the least we were all upset. Some of the group of people I was hanging out with went to Denny's and Joe and I retreated to our room for the evening, and watched TV and griped about the injustice of the bullshit they were pulling. The next morning everything was back to normal with panels running and the previously scheduled programs resuming, however by this point I didn't care. We left right after out Final Fantasy panel that morning and just come back home. I really hope it isn't at the same hotel next year and if it is I am staying across the street at the Red Roof Inn or the Sheridan.

My current plans are to go and apply for unemployment and start job hunting starting either tomorrow or Tuesday. Wish me luck everyone, and I hope you are all well.